The other day I was listening to a song while driving home. Up to that point, it had been a rather uneventful day. Suddenly out of nowhere, I was sobbing uncontrollably to the point that I really should have pulled over. But I kept on driving because I just wanted to get home.
A few weeks ago, I wanted to do something nice for a few friends. I spent a lot of time thinking through what to put in a care package for each of them. As I was loading the packages into the car to mail them, I was giddy. I couldn’t wait to celebrate my friends.
And all was well in my little celebration world … until I arrived at the post office.
“What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us.” Romans 8:31
When I tell people that my wife Nancy and I have been married 45 years, I almost always hear “Wow!” and “That’s great.” I appreciate those comments, but where we are today has been a journey. We didn’t have an awesome marriage for a very long time.
When you’re in the midst of your pain, in the midst of those bad memories, smack dab in the middle of those unpaid bills, just remember that choosing depression doesn’t diminish the pain, reliving what happened in the past doesn’t make today better, worrying doesn’t pay the bills and TROUBLE DON”T LAST ALWAYS!
God is the same YESTERDAY, TODAY and He will be the same TOMORROW, so why not depend on the ONE who never changes; the ONE who only wants the best for you and if He brings you to a problem, He will bring you through the problem. And you will be stronger, wiser and able to help someone else. He promised He wouldn’t put any more on you than what you can handle; He knows you better than you know yourself, so pull yourself up, drag yourself out of the bed, dry your eyes and let’s meet whatever challenges that come our way with both feet planted firmly in God’s word. Guard your mind so that your thoughts don’t take you to places God never intended for you. Our minds can wreak havok in our lives or be a refuge of peace, depending on what we feed it, and where we allow it to go. Guard it with your life so that you can have better days, more productive thoughts, reactions….Hold on to Hope!
Sometimes I just want to shout, “I can’t DO THIS!”
Circumstances can get overwhelming.
Relationships can be frustrating.
And there are days when I just can’t figure out what to do.
On Friday, Nov 7th at 11 am I buried my daddy. It was also my son’s 40th birthday ( he was killed in a car accident 7 years ago). Two days later on Nov 9th was my daddy’s 81st birthday. To say that that it was one heck of a weekend is an understatement. But don’t feel sorry for me. I’m still standing with God’s help.
The irony is, I got stuck trying to write this column about getting unstuck. Then I looked at my five-point outline and realized I was engaging in habit #4: Perfectionism. The tape playing in my head yelled as I stared at the blank screen: “You can’t start typing words until you figure out exactly how to say what you want to say!” Then I remembered the mantra that gets me writing: You have permission to write badly. You can edit later.
One beautiful morning, I was having breakfast with my 5-year-old son, Finn. I noticed our waitress walking toward us and thought to myself, she needs to smile. She hardly said hello and hurriedly took our drink order.
We both noticed that her mouth was wired shut. My son asked me why her mouth looked that way, and I told him the few cosmetic reasons why someone would need their mouth wired. Then he looked at me with his big, cute eyes and told me to ask her why.
Should I be honest? I wondered.
What if I start crying? What if she doesn’t really have time to listen? What if she’s just asking to be nice?
I could keep it simple and say, “I’m fine.”
There I was, standing in the lobby at church waiting for my husband, when a friend I hadn’t seen in a long time walked up and asked how I was doing. Our 3-year-old had recently been diagnosed with Apraxia, a severe speech disorder, and I was not “fine.”
I was exhausted. I was overwhelmed. I was afraid.
“Lord, you are GREAT and most worthy to be praised. (Psalm 145:3) There is NONE like You. (Jeremiah 10:6) You are the God who sees. (Genesis 16:13) You see Your daughter in desperate need of Your love and attention. (Psalm 121:1-8)